One thing I have realized about living with and being aroundthose affected by cancer, is it has the tendency to pull out a lot of raw emotion. Although Itry to steer towards positive emotions by driving on the path of optimism,filled with hope, I at times will hit a bump in the road, that sends me alittle off track.
This was one of those weeks where Myeloma got under my skin.To be honest, I can probably count on one hand the times Myeloma pissed me off.I can’t explain for certain why this count has been so low, but I have mytheories. One being, I have personally chosen not to “fight” the disease in thetraditional sense. I am not looking to muster up additional gusto to “battle”with Multiple Myeloma. Rather, I am choosing to #dominateLife, which may help me to be more positive and not get pulled into the negative thoughtsthat surround anyone fighting to live for another day, week,month or year. The struggle for meis held deeply within as I try to live a life that contains passion and fulfillmentto a greater purpose; clinging the moments and time that I can still have a little say in.
BUT, then every once in a while the raw emotions such asanger and sadness will come knocking on my door; and they are unavoidable. I struggle to contain theseemotions because I don’t have much experience in this department. Simply put, Ifeel mad and sad at the same time and I don’t know which came first. I do knowthat the root of it is watching others with Multiple Myeloma (and cancer ingeneral) get knocked off the road and at times crash very quickly and painfully.The longer on this journey, the more I am presented with the reality thatpeople die of Multiple Myeloma, and they die young.
Keep on the path, be real and dominate what life you haveleft,
-Phil
#CancerKicker
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